In trying to come to a clean honest view of what has been and is my own life each day, each moment I am discovering that person. I am that person only if I keep my attention focused both on others I find myself caring about and valuing and on the person I am as I am sharing that together with them. I am deeply thankful for the challenge of that awareness.
It is this which I find myself clarifying and focusing when I assist in rehearsal. It is this which I find myself composing when I make a new piece of music. It is even this which I offer in a social exchange except when such focus is inappropriate and a sense of humor is the resource to bring.
When I discuss my music, whether in lecture or writing or simply in conversation, the line of least effort is to quote myself rather than to bring my moment by moment awareness into play in a real effort to create and to communicate for the specific purpose. That is very much the circumstance as I am typing this now. I speak to an unspecified group of readers and what I am saying concerns my fundamental motivations. I feel a sincere wish to be useful . But this again is a quote; I have said that often .
Paradox.
Resolution?